Transitions

A transition matrix is a mathematical grid expressing the likelihood to move from one state to another. In other words it tells you how likely it is for what is now to turn into something else.
When one looks at the past one will often wonder how come what happened took place and why all the other million of things that could have happened did not materialise.

Why did we choose that particular university course? Why did we go to that party that day and met that special person? Why didn't we accept that job on the other side of the world?
We could have done or not done any of those things.
We sometimes call it destiny or fate. As though some power can move us to one specific cell of the grid, rather than another.

In reality I think that one's destiny is the overall collection of possibilities that can materialise in one's life. Our potential, our ability to be and do all the things that we can be and do is what makes up our fate, whether we fulfill it or not.

Everything outside this potential, anything outside our own 'transition matrix' is the infinity of the things we will never do and be. I think that a lot of people are so busy trying to be something outside their own destiny that they never realise their actual potential. When people 'look for happiness in the wrong place' perhaps are trying to move to a cell that does not exist in their own grid. This is why self awareness is so important.

It seems to me that for many of us the most likely output is to remain in a state similar to the one where we started from. For instance, my most likely output would have been to stay back home in Sardinia, and create a life for myself there like most of the people that I know there.
If I were to trace back all the transitions that have led me to be here, right now, I would probably be able to identify those very special moments in which I moved from one cell in my grid to a far away cell, changing my life forever.

A place like London changes one's destiny. Suddenly massive changes in direction become unnaturally likely, meaning that one can aspire to fulfil their potential, they can more freely pursue their ambitions. I think that this is the ultimate essence of why this city is so special. Why people miss it when they leave it.

They miss it because it is as though by leaving this city we are back to a place where we feel that our destiny has not got as much breath, as much possibility. We feel as though our transition matrix might reduce till we feel that we are stuck forever.